Hey guys, today’s a personal blog post. So without further ado, lately I’ve been thinking about my own growth. I always write about self-growth and improvement but I started wondering if I really portray and live by what I teach. I reflected like I had asked you to do in the last blog. What I found was that although I’m still improving it’s more of a passive action. I have stopped purposely paying attention to my mentality, and it’s slowed my progress down a lot. I still journal and reflect everyday but I don’t ask HOW I’m going to change, I just ask what I need to change. Which is a good first step, don’t get me wrong, but that’s all it is. A first step. I need to start asking more questions after that. What do I need to change? How can I do that? And why do I want to change in the first place? These are what I should be asking myself. So I’ve made one of my goals this month to pay more attention to myself. Not in an obsessive egotistical way, but in an objective way. I already have found three things I want to change and how I plan to. I wrote them down below so you can see them.
- I tend to procrastinate my school work and only work on what I like to do. Like this blog post, writing, reading, and in some cases skating. In order to change this I’m going to add a prompt to my journal asking me, at the end of the day, how much school I did in comparison to screen time and my side projects. And if I got everything, for school, done that I needed too. A second way I’m working on fixing this is not getting on my phone until 1hr after I wake up and to shut it of while I do hw.
- I tend to worry what others think of me too much. This causes me to be afraid of failing in front of people. So to avoid that I just don’t try whatever it is I’m working on. To combat that I’m going to push myself outside of my comfort zone more often. We grow the most when we’re uncomfortable, and I need to remember this. So I’m going to just try my best and try to learn to automatically think failure is okay without talking myself into it. Eventually if I keep re-framing my thoughts to learn and accept failure it should become a natural thing I do.
- I use the excuse I need to rest too often. The world is constantly promoting rest and self-care which is important. But it seems a little too much. So I need to not listen to that and use it as an excuse. Yes, when I need rest I should take it. That being said, there’s a line where instead of being healthy it becomes lazy. To switch that I’m going to push myself to work more on the ice while I’m there and rest fully when I’m supposed to instead of mixing the two times together. The same goes for school, and my other stuff I have going.
Anyway these are the three things I found I struggle with when I reflected. My way of going about changing might change as I go but this is what I’ve got so far. I’ll probably do an update post at the end of the month to let you know how I’m doing and if I’m improving in these areas. I hope you enjoyed this post. If you have any comments or questions you can comment bellow or email me though the contact page in the menu.